There are no words to describe how much I love you. No one has ever loved someone as much as I love you so no one has ever had to make words for such a strong feeling of love. There are no words to describe how I would do anything to make you happy, how the only thing I ever think about is you, how you’re always on my mind, how when you’re sad I am too, how I would go to the end of the world and back five times if you wanted me to, how when you smile my knees get all weak, and how when you tell me everything will be okay I forget all my problems and think only about you. I love you more than you could ever imagine.

There are no words to describe how much I love you. No one has ever loved someone as much as I love you so no one has ever had to make words for such a strong feeling of love. There are no words to describe how I would do anything to make you happy, how the only thing I ever think about is you, how you’re always on my mind, how when you’re sad I am too, how I would go to the end of the world and back five times if you wanted me to, how when you smile my knees get all weak, and how when you tell me everything will be okay I forget all my problems and think only about you. I love you more than you could ever imagine.

Courage is when you’re in pain, but you keep on living anyway. Uhm, hi! =))

Courage is when you’re in pain, but you keep on living anyway. Uhm, hi! =))

Hi.

Goodmorning guys! Have a nice day.

It’s funny how sometimes the people you’d take a bullet for, are the ones behind the trigger.
—  Ritu Ghatourey 
Jgh.

I feel so loved. Though, magkakalayo na kami dahil ppunta na siyang Manila bukas. Pinapakita niya talaga na ako lang ang nag iisa para sakanya. Nung sinundo niya ako, iniwan ko na yung mga girlfriends ko para naman makasabay ko siya pauwe. Pagkakita ko sakanya, niyakap ko talaga agad siya, tapos binigay ko sakanya yung binili ko’ng inumin para sakanya kasi alam ko na-uhaw siya sa pagbbike. Ayun, nung naka labas na kame ng SBMA naghhintay ng jeep na sasakyan ko, sabe ko nga sakanya ayaw ko pa umuwe eh kasi gusto ko pa siya makasama. Umiiyak na talaga ako, wala akong pakielam sa lahat ng tao na naka tingin samin, niyayakap na nga niya ako eh, sabe pa niya “Kawawa naman ang baby ko, mamimiss talaga kita” Ayun, lalo tuloy akong nalungkot at naiyak. Hanggang sa makasakay ako, nakaka touch siya, sinusundan pa talaga niya yung jeep na sinakyan ko habang nagbbike siya, para din masigurado na safe ako makauwe. Grabe, kahit na talaga sobrang dami naming away at hiwalayan na napagdaanan masasabi ko talaga na worth it lahat ng pagssakripisyo ko. There are no words to describe how much I love him. :’)

If only time could stand still.

If only time could stand still.

The day you left, something lapsed inside of me that seemed to doom an end. It was one of those feelings that you can never be entirely sure of. All I remember is that when I watched you, with your back turned and your dark hair tousled in the way it was when your fingers ran over it more than a couple of times out of frustration, I had a taste of something on the tip of my tongue. It was bitter. So bitter that a grimace was fixated on my face seconds after it settled. Along with the taste was a bash towards the chest. My pulse faltered, it skipped a beat over three and it hurt so bad I couldn’t bid myself to breathe. I remember walking home the day you left, I remember doing a whole lot of comprehending, in each advance I made. I remember thinking, thinking so much that the confusion just kept on building, the initial being topped over by a new set of questions. But when I got home, when my eyes skimmed over the memories that were garnered in every corner that once held your presence, I understood what it was: it was pain. Awful and absolute that existed out of thoughts that having you leave was the probable end of everything - and anything that came after which.

The day you left, something lapsed inside of me that seemed to doom an end. It was one of those feelings that you can never be entirely sure of. All I remember is that when I watched you, with your back turned and your dark hair tousled in the way it was when your fingers ran over it more than a couple of times out of frustration, I had a taste of something on the tip of my tongue. It was bitter. So bitter that a grimace was fixated on my face seconds after it settled. Along with the taste was a bash towards the chest. My pulse faltered, it skipped a beat over three and it hurt so bad I couldn’t bid myself to breathe.

I remember walking home the day you left, I remember doing a whole lot of comprehending, in each advance I made. I remember thinking, thinking so much that the confusion just kept on building, the initial being topped over by a new set of questions. But when I got home, when my eyes skimmed over the memories that were garnered in every corner that once held your presence, I understood what it was: it was pain. Awful and absolute that existed out of thoughts that having you leave was the probable end of everything - and anything that came after which.

Sometimes, no matter how hard you treasure someone, they will never treasure you back the way you do and sometimes, you have to okay with that cos there’s nothing you can do and expecting too much hurts the most.

There would be times in our life when we would just look back to to all the things in the past. You would replay all the things that you have done with that particular someone and all the conversations that you had with him. You would recall all the places you explored together, all the movies you watched while holding each other hands, all the songs that you listen to again and again and all those times that you just want to last forever. You would try to bring back the memories of all the fights you had and the reasons why. All these things would keep on crashing back into your mind once in a while and you would have this question to yourself: “Where did we go wrong?” Maybe it is when he started not to text you regularly when he used to be so clingy. Maybe it is when he got jealous when he saw you with your guy best friend hugging each other when you are comforting him when he got dumped. Maybe it is when you didn’t have much time to have a date with him because you were so busy with your studies or work. Maybe it is when you read this particular message on his phone that indicates he has another woman. Maybe it is the time when you looked at him and you realized that everything wasn’t just the same anymore. And maybe you wouldn’t even know when it started. The truth is you will never know and you never knew when it ended. You wouldn’t detect that first sign of trouble because all you know are the things from your perspective, not his. And so maybe, it has ended a long time ago with him, he isn’t just telling it to you. You would just know when the moment of truth comes, when your heart has been broken and the damage has been done. How we wish life has those warning signs that would tell us if a relationship is about to fall apart so that we wouldn’t have to feel its pain but then we don’t and we have no choice but to deal with the loss just after it broke us apart.

There would be times in our life when we would just look back to to all the things in the past. You would replay all the things that you have done with that particular someone and all the conversations that you had with him. You would recall all the places you explored together, all the movies you watched while holding each other hands, all the songs that you listen to again and again and all those times that you just want to last forever. You would try to bring back the memories of all the fights you had and the reasons why. All these things would keep on crashing back into your mind once in a while and you would have this question to yourself: “Where did we go wrong?”

Maybe it is when he started not to text you regularly when he used to be so clingy. Maybe it is when he got jealous when he saw you with your guy best friend hugging each other when you are comforting him when he got dumped. Maybe it is when you didn’t have much time to have a date with him because you were so busy with your studies or work. Maybe it is when you read this particular message on his phone that indicates he has another woman. Maybe it is the time when you looked at him and you realized that everything wasn’t just the same anymore. And maybe you wouldn’t even know when it started.

The truth is you will never know and you never knew when it ended. You wouldn’t detect that first sign of trouble because all you know are the things from your perspective, not his. And so maybe, it has ended a long time ago with him, he isn’t just telling it to you. You would just know when the moment of truth comes, when your heart has been broken and the damage has been done. How we wish life has those warning signs that would tell us if a relationship is about to fall apart so that we wouldn’t have to feel its pain but then we don’t and we have no choice but to deal with the loss just after it broke us apart.